Tuesday, January 29, 2008, 2:43 PM
Flipping through my blog archive jus now again to cure my boredom...There reading the past posts...While reading.. dunno why my mood start to sink down again...haiz...While reading through the 20 July de post..
I recalled back what happen during that day...
Rmbing how I made her happy on that day...
N also how I made her sad in the end...The words I sae... is like letting her go like that...But.. why lata I feel so painful...? haiz...Ended up is like all my fault to sae those words...Sometimes I really feel that I m brainless de lo...Everytime talk nv think through my brain first de...End up make ppl around me unhappy...Sometimes I really dunno what I really wan de..Everytime the things I do is different from what I think de...I really can't understand myself... Even reading so many horoscope thingy about myself..I still dun really noe who am I?I still dunno what I wan? what I need? Can anyone tell me?Everytime I sae I m lonely... Staying in my lonely world...But m I really that lonely?I still have my frens... I still have my family... I still have them... But why I still have tis kind of depressed feeling in me?Jus now I even go and count the number of emo posts I have in my lonely world...
It was only 30 out of 87 since July 2007...
Still a fail lo...A lot mehx? I tink not coz of frens de comments, I will have more than that... even a pass in it ba...haiz... Coz of it.. I have try to post in the way that I m feeling great... I m feeling happy...But... that only make me feel more xin ku in the end...I wanna try to express myself out in my blog... (But those feeling I have, I really dunno how to express it...) I dun wish to hide my feeling anymore le... I cant stand those feeling in me once again...I think sooner or lata I gonna break down again liao la...haiz...
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